So we spent all of last weekend together at a cabin on the Olympic Peninsula with friends. We made it to 3 bodies of water in one weekend which is kind of an amazing part of living in Washington state. River, Ocean and Lake all in 2 days.

I only made a visit to blackout island one of the nights. And no, I don't mean I actually went to an island. That's just my term for blacking out from consuming too much booze. Which I tend to do a lot as you will soon learn. We played super perverted and crass charades, talked about sex WAY too much, got some real life action and didn't just talk about it, got annoyed with my friends gf who is super flirty with any guy that will pay attention to her (including S) even though her bf is right there. She is a skinny little redhead with huge, gross, pale boobs and she flails her body around and acts like she is gods gift to men, even though she totally sucks. Whatevs. We generally just acted like total city creeps meet the forest all weekend, and im sure the locals were like alright, get the shit out of here, please and thanks.

I called in sick on Monday and used my sprained ankle as an excuse, even though it's pretty okay at this point. And yes I sprained it the previous weekend after I drank copious amounts of free alcohol at a local event in my city where lot's of amazing bands come and play. Or actually, I sprained it after I drunkenly called S and told him I was all by myself and scared (hi, yeah right. Yes, my friends had indeed ditched me but I could have found them. My drunk self just wanted to see him and I knew I was only blocks away from his house). He came and scooped me and we met up with 2 of my roommates and they decided it would be a wise choice to go to an absinthe bar. Good call. Take the ridiculous drunk girl to an absinthe bar. She needs it, clearly. So we order absinthe, which I have never had before...and instead of sipping it I down mine like a shot. Cut to me boarding a speedboat to blackout island. On the way to the boat I was attempting to flag a cab (even though my companions had already hailed one) and I fell off a curb and sprained the shit out of ankle. Brilliant. And now it looks like I have a foot they would stumble upon sticking out of the ground in some crime show.

S took my car to work Monday since I called in and by the time he came home I was in grouch mode because I knew the time was coming soon where he would make his exit and I wouldn't hear from him until, well, I heard from him. That's what the rollercoaster of our relationship consists of. We hang out when he wants to spend time with me and then I take him home and he says "see you later" or "talk to you soon", and then it's just a waiting game for me. I try to contact him as little as possible because I don't like being needy. He has his life with me and then he has a his life doing lord knows what. I'm just really getting tired of it. I'll feel okay during the time we aren't together. Like truly okay. Doing my own thing. And then he will call and say "want to hangout" and i'll be like duh. And while we are hanging out i'll get progressively more anxious and crabby, because I know it will be coming to an end soon. It's just a cycle that keeps repeating itself. I hate being in limbo. Monday was the last time I talked to him. We are going on day 2 of not hearing from him. He is going camping with a bachelor party this weekend and I am going to Idaho for 5 days Monday, so we'll see if he contacts me for some quality time before that. Doubtful.

Our cable is out so last night I was watching old episodes of Laguna beach I have on DVD (i am not even sure why I have Laguna beach on DVD...weird) and when Jason was treating Jessica like crap and never calling her except when he wanted some ass, I was like oh shit, is that ME?? Am I like Jessica?? Is S my Jason? Is that how I look to the outside world? And then I punched myself in the face after I realized I was getting all sappy and introspective after watching Laguna F'ing Beach of all things. Man, i am getting pathetic in my old age of 29.

Sad sack songs of the moment: The Sounds- Night after Night
Beirut- The Penalty
Arcade Fire- Crown of Love

Pump up songs of the moment: Architecture in Helsinki- Wishbone
Beirut- Scenic World
Vampire Weekend- I Stand Corrected